Current location:	My couch.
Current mood:	tired
Current music:	Dull Life - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Entry tags:	jess, life

Sundays hurt the most.
It's pretty sad just how much I dread when Sunday comes. My weekends have become much too short, and my weeks have become much too droning. I'm not sure where I'm going right now. I like working at Oakley for the most part. I like the people I work with, I like the company, but I find myself thinking more about where it's all going. Am I going to move up in this company and work here forever? I had a completely different plan for myself a year ago. I don't regret anything and I'm not unhappy though. I suppose I'm still getting used to it.


I miss my family, the ones that matter most are halfway across the world. I miss my best friend.


I have the feeling like I'm looking for something, but I can't find it. I don't know what it is, though.


I guess I can chalk this all up to the weird and ever-increasing existential moments I've been having. Sometimes I'll have moments where I feel like I'm looking at my own life from outside and wondering if that is really me.


I have this wrinkle on the left side of my mouth that I can see growing deeper. It's contributed to my fear of getting old, and increased the thoughts I have on my own mortality.


I wonder where my dad is right now.